I’m already 30 years old, and my life seems worse than ever. I tend to reminisce about the good old days just so I don’t lose my mind. Everything I have ever dreamed of has gone down the drain and I have reached a point that I don’t even know what to do with what I have now in my life, I fear doing anything drastic that might cause me to lose what I have left. But after a lot of think I have come to the conclusion that the only way to better my life is to make some really drastic changes to my life. The changes will be so drastic that I might as well go to Court and change my name as well.
Some here may have not noticed and some may have, but I already started by changing my logon name. I use to be DJBandit (well I still am that person just a new name); I felt the name did not give me a sense of seriousness nor to the people who responded to me sometimes. I decided to use my own name cause I could not find anything that sounded more serious, more mature, smarter, without giving a title I don’t deserve like Dr. or Sgt. (I do not mean those who have it don’t deserve it, I’m only speaking about myself, just in case).
Many things that I normally do, many ways that I express myself don’t seem to be working in making people take me serious and I also come across as corny at times. My abilities at making jokes are about as advanced as a baby’s ability to fly a jet plane. At time I feel like the joke is on me since I’m the only one laughing.
I’ve decided to make changes on my entire life (it’s about time), not only for myself, but also for my family. It’s time to get out of the gutter and start enjoy life to it’s fullest. But to do so I must change my financial position from bottom of the barrel to middle class and continue to move forward in hopes of reaching my new goal which will be to make enough money to fulfill my needs, my desires, and them some. My goal is to show my children that they can do anything if they set their minds to it. My goals is to give them the life that I once had, to give them what I did get, to give them the opportunity to be better than I am, better than they think they could be, to be able to avoid the mistakes I have made in life by learning from my mistakes. I will aspire to be more and work hard to accomplish these goals. I will do everything I can short of illegal things to reach my goals.
Another thing I plan on changing is my communication with my family. Over the years I have been witness to incredible chances in my brother and sisters life. These changes have affected me a lot, to the point that relationships between my brothers and sisters and me are either hanging by a thread or are completely dead. In order to avoid losing what is left I must put distance between us. As sad as it may sound I believe it’s the best solution, I hope that the idea of me having very little communication with them will make them see the errors of their ways.
There are still more changes to come. I would like to talk about my changes and the reasons for the changes in detail. Hopefully these changes will make me a better person for me and for my family.
So get ready for the new me, but don’t expect to see all of the old me gone over night, change sometimes takes time. Thanx for reading.